Abortion. Guilt. Shame. Redeemed.

I was in my 20’s and a mother to a beautiful little girl. I was in a relationship with my daughter’s father, someone that I had been in relationship with since I was 17 years of age. The relationship was not necessarily a healthy relationship, but, it was an important part of my life at this time. I found myself pregnant, yet again, suffering from the unbearable, miserable, raging raft, that hyperemesis gravidarum causes. Without boring you with detail-by-detail, long story short, I found myself on an abortion table, without medication (I had previously thrown up so I couldn’t take the recommended pill for pain relief), shaking profusely, scared and cold. Now, I WAS NEVER THE ONE TO BE PRO-CHOICE, because I believe that GOD IS PRO-LIFE, so, I was as well. HOWEVER, pain can drive us into making all sorts of decisions that we will LATER REGRET. Unfortunately, little did I know, that wouldn’t be my last abortion.

I could blame my body, or, I could blame God, however, I was the one to blame. I was unmarried and living a life of fornication. Am I saying that my health issues were derived from my sinful lifestyle? NO. I am saying, if I was living according to God’s commands, I would have never found myself in those situations to begin with. You may be thinking that I Sound a bit harsh, but, it’s really the opposite. God is LOVE, so therefore, His Word is LOVE. His commands are LOVE. If we obey Hid laws and decrease, we can avoid many of the trials that we face, because many times, it’s our own disobedience that led us into the trial.

What if poor, young, unmarried, Mary, decided to abort her baby? Where would you and I be? You and I was knit perfectly together in our mother’s womb. We have purpose. We have value. We belong to God. We are living in times were the CULTURE is trying to CANCEL anyone who does not agree that life begins at conception. We are living in times where people will poor paint on you, for wearing a genuine fur coat. We live in times where the life of a chicken is more valuable than the life of a human fetus. Abortion has become the way to control the population, and fornication has become a way to express individual freedom.

Have you had an abortion? Are you living in GUILT? Are you living in SHAME? Maybe you thought that you were truly making the best choice at that time, but now, you aren’t so sure if it truly was the best choice. Maybe the current headlines are bringing up a lot of feelings within you, and causing you to reflect on feelings that you really would rather not deal with right now. Can I tell YOU something? GOD LOVES YOU. Give your GUILT and SHAME over to Him, because those emotions DO NOT come from Him. The enemy has taunted you long enough. It took me over 20 years to forgive myself; don’t wait as long as I did. It does not matter what society says. TODAY, you can be free from GUILT and SHAME, and live in Jesus’s REDEEMING BLOOD.

“For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place, when I was woven together in the depths of the earth. Your eyes saw my unformed body; all the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.” Psalms‬ ‭139:13-16‬ ‭NIV‬‬‬‬

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Reflective Questions

1. How does my stance on the topic of abortion, compare to the Word of God, when it pertains to life, death and murder?

2. Am I willing to surrender my own views of abortion, shame and/or guilt, over to the Lord?

3. Do I truly forgive myself (if you have had an abortion)?